day 3: 2 of pentacles (reality doubled, depth. glow up-)

12/30/2020

Peace family!
Today we are looking at the Two of Pentacles (Jupiter in Capricorn). This card is a combination of Jupiter (Wheel of Fortune) & Capricorn (The Devil) energy.

4 Comments

Dela

1/28/2021 09:23:02 am

This card makes me think of the relationship I am in now. I got into this relationship about 6 months before my life started to take a drastic shift. The transition was tough for me, but having him there next to me helped anchor and ground me. I fell under the dis-belief that I had "owed him" for being there for me and "taking my shit." So I tried to be the perfect girl friend, but I would still fall flat on my face under my big emotions. And the cycle of episode, apology, happy, episode, apology, happy, would repeat until I said enough was enough. God granted me the space I needed to heal. Since that particular transition, I have been on the quest to heal myself. And I have to say.... nothing really helped out in a real way until this work right here with the tarot.

But I don't want to disregard all the therapy, the journaling, and the introspection it took to get to this point of being able to articulate/write about/share my shadows.

Because 2020 (doubles) had shown me all of the foolishness (projections) that was still pent up inside me. I was ashamed for how I acted and treated people around me. I was embarrassed that I couldn't keep my composure. And I had self-doubt that told me what I was doing was never enough, not perfect, not this, not that...

But on the flip side, I knew myself. I've seen my light. I've felt it. I've dreamt it up (Be Loved). I catch subtle glimpses of it here and there (with that 9 of cups feeling). And yet I still go back and forth between the "I'm not good enough" and the "I was made for this." (Be Love)

To bring it back and wrap it up, this card reminds me that I don't live for anybody else, not my mom, not my sister, not my dad, not my boyfriend. I only live for me. And if I show myself love in all 5 different languages from time to time, I will want nothing. I will be able to fill my own cup and overflow to those that are closest to me (Light Myself/Like Myself).

Thank you again Oubria for this work.

Natrue

1/30/2021 02:28:13 pm

Patiently sure of myself, knowing all along and always I am Enough 💙

Thank you

LMP

1/30/2021 09:59:16 pm

These four videos!
I laughed, I cried, I learned.

Now every time I try to half ass something I have Oubria in my mind saying, do it the right way. :-)
I might leave another comment if I have more to say, but I wanted to check in and say thank you! I’m integrating this on a deep level. I feel calm. I feel complete. There’s a map. Standing on the sure. I have no wants. Send me, Assign.

In my life it feels like things are working more smoothly and that the tools are there. The biggest challenge is the part about saving.

Gratitude!

Kelsey

1/31/2021 10:09:01 pm

My reflections:

Reality - The 8 of swords post is when I declared what my intention for this year is! So cool that this card is connected to that because I just realized how my intention relates to being present in my circumstances--staying put, being still vs needing to come home to myself after getting off-track.

Doubled - I love all the various ways of recognizing when I've deviated from creating a life I light (like). The other day, I noticed I was in an obsessive online shopping mood and it was pretty obvious that I felt like I needed to find the exact shoes and bag I was looking for! I really do understand how living a life that I light leaves me wanting / needing nothing.

Depth - This one took a while for me to grock, but here are my takeaways:

* Do not give yourself up to save someone else; do send your light their way, or to someone else who is in more need than you are.
* Do not try to be where you are not; trying to escape reality causes suffering.
* Calling something wrong is a judgement, not the truth.
* What we judge as wrong, actually has what will truly fulfill us following right behind it, if we’re patient.
* Otherwise, I get distracted from our work, from our purpose of creating a life that I like / light.

Glow up - Thank you for the final note of confidence on what's in the cards for 2021! I seem to remember a lot of people talking about 2020 in the same way; with a lot of excitement and lofty expectations. But, perhaps that was the collective trying to ascend too soon, or wanting to promote ourselves without doing our work first / understanding our purpose first. We had to go through 2020 (and still much more that is residual from the year) in order to understand our purpose and then start receiving the blessings that follow once we are actually living our purpose and doing our work. Knowing that, I'm not afraid to believe that 2021 will be different!

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