of shadow work
facing the darkness /
to live in the light
to live in the light
Blessings on blessings to you all :)
Today's card is the Ten of Pentacles. It's fascinating to me that this card has come up so early in our shadow journey, because it's the very last card in the tarot. The Ten of Pentacles is the grand finale, the big reveal, the pinnacle, the...quan (remember Jerry McGuire lol?). The fact that we're reviewing it now (remember I shuffle for each day at random) reminds me of the bible verse that says, "The last shall be first & the first last."
The Ten of Pentacles (aka Jupiter in Virgo) is the combination of the Hermit card (Virgo) & the Wheel of Fortune (Jupiter). The old, wise Hermit uses the light of his sol (soul) to peer into the darkness of the past & make peace with what he finds there, to ensure he carries as little emotional baggage into the future as possible. The Wheel of Fortune (Jupiter) is the card that magically (read: fate/ serendipity/ miracles) carries him forward in time. In the tarot, the Hermit is the (9) card & the Wheel of Fortune is the (10) card, so the energy of those two cards together is quite literally the next step. Therefore, what the Hermit believes about his past will carry him forward into his future.
Let's talk it through: I've been studying this card all day but just now as I sit to type this, it strikes me how crowded it is. In some tarot cards (remember yesterday's 7 of swords, or the 10 of wands?), there is hella space to move around, but not here. This card is full. It reminds me of a couple that met & fell in love, & maybe the dude moved into the chick's one bedroom apartment which was cool because it was just the two of them, but then they had a kid, & then got a couple dogs, & then somebody's daddy had to come stay, & now dammit it's time to go shopping for a whole new house. If granddad needs-to-stay, then his son needs-to-pay. The woman is holding out her coin like, here's my part, where's yours?? But notice the man has no money in his hand - in fact, it looks like his hand is buried in her pocket. If you look at his other arm clutching the walking stick next to Granddad's forehead, we can assume he's tight fisted (tight-fist-head). With nobody putting in, sis is stuck for now.
Ok so something else that has become clear to be about this card, is that there is always another way to look at things, & your perspective will determine what you see. How you view your situation will decide whether it's a blessing or a curse. The reason I say that, is because I had a WHOLE 'NOTHER interpretation of the Ten of Pentacles that I worked on all day but just now this other shitty storyline (city story lines) emerged. I didn't expect to write any of that!
Let me try again to show y'all what I see (that was trippy lol):
First of all, I see that children are our future. I say that because the little girl in the right corner is grabbing the dog's tail. If it hurts him, she will generate-a-yelp (generational wealth). Even if he doesn't yelp, she-has-pulled-his-tail (has potential). Her role is important because if you look at the old man seated, he has no-legs-I-see (no legacy). The woman who we can assume is the child's mother, holds money-in-her-hands (my inheritance). Yet, if we look at the picture literally, she's missing-hands-held-money (mishandles money). Her inheritance is poor money management (I can relate). She doesn't want your sympathy though; she has no-hands-out (no hand outs). She stands firm, on the right, through the passage (rights of passage). Her back may be against the wall but she knows she has nowhere to grow/go but up. Although her forefather (in the foreground) followed an elaborate blueprint & indeed she can't deny her connection to him, if you look at where they intersect you'll see she is cut from a different cloth. Sometimes you have to go back to basics (back, too basic). There is the blueprint he followed, & then there is a divided design (divine design). She appreciates being a part of this coat creation (co-creation) with the arched angles (archangels). Just like the dogs, she is obedient to the master's hands (master plan). This is why she constantly looks to her guy (looks to her guides). They remind her that if she nurtures her talents (nature, two talents), builds her plans (building or plant?), sticks to the plan (sticks to to the plan; look at her hair) & treats her money right (tree or money, to the right), then it will be returned to her tenfold (he turned to her, then pole). It doesn't matter if she started from the bottom (star-ten-from-the-bottom) if she can learn to build, level up (two levels, up) & praise her highest self (place on highest shelf).
I've always loved this card but discussing it now has truly given me a new level (ha! new levels!) of appreciation for this energy. It reminds me that no matter how frustrated I feel, I can always re-mind myself. I can always think again, reach higher, build myself up. I often don't acknowledge the power of simply looking at a situation differently. It's not where you come from that matters, but where you're going. I've noticed in my personal life that when I feel the most squeezed, pressured, stuck af, that it's not a punishment, but a loving reminder that I've outgrown my current situation & its time to level up & grow. Growth is only uncomfortable when you restrict yourself. If you allow it, the expansion sets you free.
My Ten of Pentacles story is dead ass my first interpretation of this card, too:
Back in 2016, my husband & I moved to Park Forest, IL. We had been living nearby with my mom (RIP, love u) for a few years until we became financially stable, & finally we were able to rent a three bedroom house that was perfect for us & our 3.5 children. (I was pregnant with our 4th). The house had two living rooms, so we converted the back living room into a huge bedroom for ourselves, & we put three of our children between the other two bedrooms. This meant we had one empty bedroom, which we used as a meditation room. My husband's father came to visit (he recently became an ancestor/forefather too, may he RIP) & once he saw we had an open room, he asked to move in. We said yes. Then, he had all his furniture shipped in & suddenly my roomy new home was TIGHT AF. There was too much of everything, including the food bill & the heating bill & the light bill & the cable bill. My father in law was on disability & he also had a bit of debt to pay down so he couldn't contribute very much & my husband wasn't working at all so the financial responsibility was on me. For separate reasons (a whole 'nother story) I wound up leaving my job & getting unemployment, so my income was significantly reduced. My landlord was tired of me paying my rent late all the time, so he refused to renew our lease, & without my old income, I couldn't apply for another place. We were evicted & I felt like a huge failure & also worn all the way out. We couldn't move back in with my mom either, because we now had two extra people in our household (father in law + new baby boy). Forward motion only. This crisis was the catalyst that led to us packing up our entire lives & moving to Arizona & eventually California. I'm still struggling financially but now I'm struggling to make ends meet with my own business as opposed to working for someone else or getting unemployment. Whereas my struggle used to make me ashamed, now I can't feel anything but proud of myself (even on my brokest day). The sky really is the limit (levels up!) & I'm getting better & better at nurturing my talents, building my plan, looking to my guides, co-creating with the divine design, sticking to my plans & aligning with my higher self (higher shelf). Back in Chicago my job was an English professor, & I probably could have figured out a way to get another teaching job & continue the status quo; but I am 100% sure that if I'd gone that route, I might have more money (maybe...?) but I never, ever would have picked up a tarot deck & we certainly wouldn't be in here doing this wonderful shadow work. My struggles blessed me (& continue to bless me the moment I decide they do!) & in a round-about way, they blessed y'all too (if you decide they do!).
Btw, that sounds wonderful but I also have days where all I can see is that I'm 40, poor-with-a-bunch-of-kids, far from home, with too many responsibilities & not enough support. It's just a matter of perspective, you know? One thing that helps is looking at through the eyes of my ancestors, who I know are proud of me for accomplishing & surviving all that I have, & carrying our bloodline forward despite the setbacks I've experienced. Instead of feeling like a pariah, I remind myself I am their generational wealth, & I am determined that my children inherit more than my mistakes.
What's y'alls Ten of Pentacles?
all of us.