This week requires strength. We feel pushed to rush ahead with our emotions, because it is indeed a magical time. It feels like it's time to celebrate. However those emotions of reconciliation and celebration might just pulling on old energetic cords all wrapped up with old self-esteem and ego issues. This week is for asking if what we think we want is really best for our higher selves, and if not, it's about having the strength to let it go while seeking higher ground. It's a faith walk, because in order to move on from something, we have to also believe there is something out there for us to move towards. And that requires strength.
It might feel impossible, but this is the week to go with the flow. We must have the fortitude and patience of water, to understand that our presence in the situation is enough to gently erode the issue. We can’t allow ourselves to be rushed or persuaded now. We have to figure out where we want to go for ourselves. We might also be using certain vices (which are not innate vices but only become vices because of the way we’re using them) -- like friendships, relationships, sex, coffee, cigarettes, etc., to keep from obsessing about the things we don’t want to obsess about. But since obsession is a non-specific energy, we simply transfer the energy onto our distractions and obsess anyway.
We are changing right now, and the possibilities are endless. The landscape is shifting based on what we know we deserve, and who we now are based on all that we’ve been through. As things shift right beneath our feet, we must keep in constant touch with our higher power, surrendering our will in every moment. We must kill our ego by reminding it regularly that it didn’t make itself, and therefore has no idea what to do with itself. We must remain open to intuition, to signs and wonders, to knowing without knowing how we know. Most importantly, we must stay optimistic. We must know that if we have to let go of what we want, it’s only so the universe can swiftly replace it with what we need.
Our choices might upset those from our past who are used to us behaving in a certain way, but this week is about us keeping our own tender spaces safe. And truth be told, the places where we feel safe may have changed, and we may no longer feel safe with those we used to feel safe with. At the same time, we can’t let those people and situations dim our light. We have to shine our light so our new tribe -- the people who we do and/or will feel safe with, can find us. At the end of the day, no matter what promises we might have made, ultimately we belong only to ourselves. We know what’s best for us, and it’s out there waiting for us this week, if only we can muster the strength to walk towards it.
This week is about trusting our journey, about following the sunshine in our soul. This week is about not worrying whether the winds of change are blowing, because of our deep and abiding faith that ultimately we will be gently lifted from where we do not belong and rightfully placed where we DO. We have finally learned the value of our own selves, and since we create our reality from within, the landscape will now shift to send us on a new adventure, one that reflects our new level of self-esteem.
Just remember that no matter what happens, we have the ability to decide its for our own highest good. We can let it be well with our soul. The more we recognize that everything is happening exactly the way it should be, the easier it will be for us to open our hearts. Even if we’re moving on -- even if we’re the ones being moved on from -- we can count it all joy. Ultimately we are being delivered to a reality that reflects exactly who and where we are, right now. The more we allow ourselves to love and flow from the abundant well of riches within us, the more we will receive that same energy in return. We must practice forgiveness, as it is the practice of deciding that whatever happened was a holy trial to set our feet toward the truth. Forgiveness sets the stage for the blessings to come. Make no mistake - our trials MUST bless us. It is law. Therefore we can be gentle with our words and merciful with our honesty. There is no winning or losing in God’s world, because we are all one. What we do to another, we do to ourselves.
Therefore the only way to be truly victorious is to shower ourselves with love and forgiveness, and allow the overflow of our own stream of juicy goodness to trickle down to our friends and enemies alike. If we’re all connected then loving our own selves means loving everyone else -- even if it’s time to release them with love, the same way we (hopefully) release parts of our own selves with love. All the world is a mirror to help us see ourselves clearer.
See how lovely, despite it all?
This week is about allowing the path to reveal itself rather than sweating over a map. About receiving and allowing instead of forcing and blocking. We have prayed, cried, thought, re-thought, decided, re-decided, searched, found, abandoned, repeat -- but no matter how far we get in our heads about a matter, in our heads we will stay. We can’t get to “out there,” from “in here.” No matter how it sounds in our minds, ultimately its all conjecture. We are mad men clawing equations on a chalkboard. This week, spirit urges us to put the problem down and relax. This is the time for being led, for trusting that our higher powers, higher selves, spiritual authorities, angels, ancestors and spirit guides know better than we do how to get us what we want. This week we have to stop figuring out how to make something “work,” with our rational mind, as a consolation prize for the dreams we convinced ourselves were too big to come true. We need to stfu, turn off our monkey minds, and dream big ANYWAY, and be patient enough to discover how the universe will surprise and delight us, as it is always ready to do.
We just need to get in our hearts and only love. Looooove. Love ourselves, love our loved ones, love our friends, love our enemies, love our good guys, love our bad guys, love our healthy bodies, love our sick bodies, love our choices, love our confusion, love our disappointment, love what no longer serves us (because once it really, really did), love our wishes, love our complaints, and even love the fact that we don’t know how to do all that damn loving. Ha! Count it ALL joy. Because every single ingredient of our lives right now is necessary for the big stew that we will be served. That stew is everything we want and deserve, and even though something smells funny in the kitchen, it’s only because the stew ain’t ready yet. So this week we have to tell ourselves what we would tell our children who burst in starving before the food is finished, noses scrunched at the pot, wanting something -- anything -- not now, but right now!
GO PLAY. Or set the table. Or clean your room.
We must wait with a joyful spirit and trust that our creator knows our hearts and knows how to deliver us precisely to where we want to be. Do we think we know better? Did we make ourselves? Did we cause our own souls to stir in our mothers’ wombs? This is the time to be filled with gratitude at how its all coming together in miraculous ways. This is the time to let our FAITH be our strength, not our WILL. Because ultimately what we want has to be for the good of ALL, and right now we’re only looking at how to make it good for ourselves. If there are still “villains” in our lives who need to be “punished” while we are “rewarded,” we aren’t there yet. Perspective is needed. The universe knows how to balance the scales, not us. Therefore we must surrender. Trust. Love. Play. Set the table. Clean your room.
Energetically, this week is heavy. The foundations are love, ego death, and the self. Who are we? Who do we love? If today was our last day on earth, how would we spend it? Who would we spend it with?
Generally we go through life feeling like the stakes aren’t that high. We caught up in mundane cycles of work and sleep, ig and facebook, memes and outrage -- and we forget that we’re actually on a mystical, magical journey, with other star seeds in skin suits just like us, lovingly fulfilling spiritual contracts with each other even if the contract was for one of us to be the bad guy.
Have we thanked our bad guys? Like it or not, if they did the job, they did right by us. We can't be so busy holding grudges that we forget to count it all joy. We must receive the blessings our curses brought us, because curses always come bearing gifts. It is karmic law. Have we remembered to open our gifts? Have we remembered to say thank you?
And most importantly, have we understood yet that all those relationships we’ve created “out there,” we’ve actually made inside our bodies? Do we understand yet that our relationships are just divine reflections of how we feel about ourselves? If we feel like someone abandoned us, then the real question is, when did we abandon ourselves? If we feel like someone cut us down with their words, or we lost control of our mouths and cut someone else down-- the real question is, how do we talk to ourselves?
Maybe we’ve grown impatient with certain people or situations in our life that seem to have grown too long, taken over, and now seem to control our circumstances. Good or bad, we’re so ready to move on, to push forward, to force an ending because we’re ready for what comes next. We’re wanting to pull the trigger on the apocalypse because we want heaven NOW! But death & transformation have their own cycles and rhythms. Death has its own life. It takes its own time. We can’t rush change before its time, and we can’t stop it once it IS time. Are we already so intently looking beyond the unknown that we’re missing the divine karmic unfolding that is happening in front of our eyes?
This week, instead of willing events to pass, we need to let fate turn its own wheels. God got this. Life got this. We don’t have to put our hands on it. We can simply stand aside and witness. We can just be here, now. Because the time will come when we won’t be here. The day will come when things won’t be as they are right now, when we won’t have the choices we have right now, when all the juicy potential of where to go next won’t be so juicy. We needn’t rush. We can let our cauldrons bubble. We can let this meaty chunk of time fully marinate and get all its flavor.
After everything that’s gone down, we are understandably wary of putting any more energy or sacrifice into certain situations, but we have to know that every relationship we work on is really just working on the relationships with ourselves. Let us not miss our chance to be magical. Let us not miss our chance to dig in. We are completely capable of transmuting this energy and rising through it. Love and patience are the only way. This week, we need to tell somebody thank you. We need to tell somebody we love them.
We’re trying to shift the landscape, but the landscape is trying to shift US. Soon as we find our inner equilibrium, the world will right itself, boom, straight like that.
Everything seems up in the air now, all willy nilly. As mother earth falls asleep to dream, the nightmares are always first, the what if’s, the oh no’s. She knows winter is coming even if she lives somewhere the sun shines all year long. Winter is a soul state, not a season.
As the air grows cold and the winds shift, we have to remain close to our fire, our source of warmth and comfort. That fire is love. Anything else won’t get you through the chill. Any other light than love won’t keep you warm.
But what if you’ve misunderstood love all along?
What if your definition of love is changing?
And what about loving yourself first?
And how to distinguish true love of self from ego?
Right. All of that.
This week is an either/or kind of week. Either we renounce action and observe the universe do its thing, or we get in the mix and lowkey fuck it up.
If we give up, we must prepare ourselves because everything will turn upside down, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. We will come out of being super controlling, we will let go of trying to mold our new beginning with the imprint of the past, we release the need to take care of everything and everyone and maybe let some shit fall, we stop hesitating in silence and maybe just speak our minds so folks will understand why we’ve been moving so slow in the first place, we open up and really think about our relationships, we tell the folks who need to go to get on instead of kicking ourselves outside of our own lives, we get out of commitments we should have long ago voided, we stop trying to work shit out and just let it burn, like Usher said.
But if we press our own will forward, if we come out of repose and keep pushing, we will be usurped. It’s not safe out there for independence right now so if we come flying out of reclusion we will immediately be caught the fuck up. We think you know exactly what we want, so we have a vision of our new world. Forget the fact that our vision of what is possible is all caught up in an old cycle. Forget the fact that we haven’t cleansed your palate and just let ourselves breathe for a second. Naw. It’s like the mama who flies in after work and starts making dinner before she even takes her coat off. Don’t nobody want work hands in their home stew. We have to take our shoes off, put on your house clothes, have a glass of wine and settle in. Right now we’re talking faster than we can deliver, and soon we will see what we’ve gotten ourselves into. And we will have to sacrifice much to get out if it. And if we don’t, someone will come in and boot our asses out of it. This is ‘don’t write a check your ass can’t cash’ season, because we will have to cash it, whether we want to or not.
So we can either watch it all burn or jump in the fire, these are our choices this week. And that’s kind of scary, huh? Brings up lots of fear, I know. But did you know that fear is just a feeling? Did you know you don’t have to believe your feelings? You can ask the universe to show you what’s real.
Hint: The only real thing starts with an ‘L’ and rhymes with “glove.” Also its in the word “glove.”
You don’t have to believe in anything other than that. No matter how many times you get knocked down, no matter how many times you have to start again. Anything that doesn’t have love at the foundation will always fall. The only thing that can be built upon is love.
The universe is built upon this principle, so this week we are called to step aside.
a monthly message, alchemized from the tarot cards, seasoned with intuition and life experience, served with love (sometimes with a side of spicy cussin)