This week is built on speaking up. Whatever happens will be a result of us opening our mouths and letting what is in our hearts rise up into the light. Whatever we awaken in ourselves was dormant so long that the universe took note and rearranged herself to put us back in alignment. We will be turned, as if by the hand of fate, towards our deepest memories and strongest emotions, towards the people and places that for better or worse, are the root of who we truly are.
This week is built upon the compromises prerequisite to relationship stability, where inevitably someone can’t have what they want so the other person can. And the person who doesn’t get what they want doesn’t mind (too much), because they are getting WHO they want.
But I’m getting ahead of myself. First, the showdown. We’re headed into battle this week, either internally or externally or both. All the voices inside and/or outside our heads have an opinion, and they revive the topic even when we’d rather let it die. We are at war with ourselves for peace this week, and this fight feels a little too familiar. We've invested this energy before and we did not receive a return on our investment. So we’re done wasting our time, period, point blank. That’s it. Snip snap. Hands washed. It is the logical thing to do. Life is too short for poor choices.
Guess we shouldn't talk about that big ass cup of love that's going to wash over us then. Since we made up our minds and all. But, ahem - spoiler alert: the universe is asking us to make our decision again, and to speak directly into the microphone this time. Blame it on the retrogrades, but we are being asked to say it louder for the ones in the back. People will be coming at us full speed to make something happen, so we better say again what we said if we meant what we said, and if not, we better say what we mean. We can have the love; that’s why these opportunities are coming back around. But love ain't Burger King. Only one of us can have it our way.
This week is about the reality we've built with our eyes open and our wisdom fully displayed, head held high, despite all the ways we’ve devalued ourselves in relationships, all the ways we hurt our own feelings, all the ways we've cut folks out and moved on, lied and crept back, confused ourselves, worried ourselves, died to the whole cycle and rose again. We’ve looked within and re-evaluated, and now we know what we want. Hopefully we’ve realized that if we’re waiting for someone else to give or become what we need, we will be waiting for FUCKING EVER. You know the best thing about love? Everybody needs it and everybody has it, so everybody can give it to themselves.
Venus retrograde taught us, and Mercury retrograde is about to remind us, that we have the power we seek. It is our emotions that make us forget, but…
Well you know how the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result? What if we took the energy that we always, always, always, always, put into the goal of getting someone else to love us, and for once in our lives but ALL that energy into loving our own selves?
And do you know the best thing you can give yourself? The highest act of self love?
Clarity. Knowing who you are and what you require at all times. Now that you know what you need, you shall have it -- because YOU had it all along. Nobody’s body is home but your body, therefore you cannot be left out. You ARE the in.
This week rests on friendship, relationship, connection. What is emotion anyway? How does energy move between ourselves and others? What is this magical energy in motion that allows people to get carried away in their love and longing for each other?
Perhaps there are some relationships in our lives that we’ve just given up because the energy just isn’t there. We fought the good fight, we tried to protect it -- we even gave the matter over to the Almighty. But the time comes for all things to die, no matter how much prayer and begging we do. Sometimes the death IS the answer to our prayer. If we can face that truth and allow ourselves to go through the grieving process, then we can be delivered to the other side. If Goddess herself is no longer putting energy into something, then it’s out of our hands. When energy transitions to another place, we must go with it. We can only thrive where life lives. Whatever is crumbling must be permitted to fall, so that the creator can rebuild in a manner that is pleasing to her.
This week we are writhing in our emotions, our hidden feelings, our secret places. We are feeling the things we rarely look at in the light. Our obstacle is faith, whether or not we have the strength to meet Goddess halfway when it comes to co-creating our deepest desires. If we believe our treasure is coming, we must clean house to create space. We must be honest about the seeds occupying soil in our lives that never, ever gave us a reward for our effort, no matter how diligently we tended the earth. We must be honest about our failures. And yet even as logic screams at us to cut our losses and throw it all away, we can’t help but hope that if we just work a little harder, just give it one more chance…
Our hearts are bigger than we ever imagined this week, and with big hearts come hope. And it has been said a time or two that with hope, anything is possible. Our advice this week is to keep our emotions steady while we balance them with our thoughts. Mind and heart must work together; neither know the way alone. We must be wary of blindly defending what we have always defended; but so must we also be wary of hastily abandoning that to which we have always been loyal. This is the week to let the universe fight our battles while we get a little rest.
New opportunities -- and possibly RENEWED opportunities -- are heading toward us this week. We don’t have to do anything except relax, refresh, and quite possibly -- reconsider. We are hesitant to rush to OR from anyone this week, because rushing at all in either direction will result in a missed opportunity. This week we need to let the magic of love, friendship & emotion play all around us, and allow that magic to reveal certain aspects of close relationships that we might otherwise miss.
This week reminds us to get back to our heart, because love is the opposite of fear. No matter what is happening in our lives, we are getting another chance to show it what we’re made of. What is our spiritual law? Who or what is our authority? What are the rules of our integrity? What are our values? What is our value? We must train our spirits to be courageous by deciding that as long as we are playing life by rules we respect, win or lose, it's a good game. Win or lose, the questions we should be asking are: What did we learn? What do we know that we didn’t know before? Who are we that we weren’t before?
This week is about releasing commitments that feel like burdens, even if doing so causes us to feel vulnerable, weak and exposed. Why should that matter, if we are free? We are being asked to show emotional maturity by giving our time and attention only to the energies we want to see renewed in our lives. It’s time to apply our hard won wisdom and prove to ourselves that we don’t just talk about it, we be about it. Everything we want is on the other side of everything we fear, and we must allow that truth to penetrate the darkness as we push the fuck through.
Perhaps there is a situation that makes us feel stable but takes too much from us in the name of stability. We are done sacrificing. We are done being lost in illusion, in love with the fantasy of possibility. This week is about the here and now, and letting the river the of the past wash itself away. We are finally facing forward.
It won’t take us long to experience complete faith in our own journey no matter who is on it with us. Our advice this week is not to worry if we need to leave or if we are left. Abandonment is only an illusion. We are in the mystical in-between, being delivered from one realm to the next; as soon as we let go of the cloth of this reality, a new one will materialize in front of our faces, one that shows us there was nothing at all to be afraid of.
May we use the momentum of the dark as we burst into the light. No one can stay in the womb forever.
It’s time to be reborn, all of us from love, our births highly anticipated.
a monthly message, alchemized from the tarot cards, seasoned with intuition and life experience, served with love (sometimes with a side of spicy cussin)